Sometimes, i just wish there would be someone standing infront of me.
Someone who would turn back and wait for me.
Someone who would just hold out their hand,
smile,
and wait for me to run up,
then walk along with me,
never leaving that spot beside me.
Listening to whatever i have to say,
who would smile at me,
or cry with me,
or talk to me,
and make everything seem bright,
even though it were raining like crazy around us.

Sometimes,
I just wish I had a,
true friend.

Just something I thought of in the past few days after ATC.
why can't things be like in camp/ guides?
Why must everyone fight to be the most popular? Or the smartest?
Isn't it enough just to have someone who will always be beside you?
Just to have a permanent smile on your face,
and not a fake one?
Where you truly feel the warmth when someone stops and asks you,
"Are you okay?" with sincerity?

Even though we might be going through tough times,
just grab hold of the person's hands,
and even if we were running in the rain,
it would be all warm around,
as if the sun was brightening everything around you?

Why aren't there friends like that around?
There might be,
but they aren't around me.

I really.
don't know anymore.

Are you truly happy having many popular friends around you?
Are you truly happy being beautiful by following the trends?
Are you truly happy by being popular around everyone in class?

Or,

Are you better off having one or two friends who you know will be there for you no matter what, who you know will reply your sms immediately, friends who will know if you are truly upset or happy no matter how hard you try to cover it up?

Are you better off following your own personality even though it may seem old fashioned to others? To ignore other's critisms, to be unique, to be, yourself?

Are you better off just having your own friends, and not trying so hard to fit in when you know you cant?



And to those who have nothing better to do but to put others down and hurt their feelings, please stop it.
Cause i bet you don't feel good everytime you do so.
and you aren't making yourself more popular trust me,
you're just being more distasteful.

whoosh,
everything just came out.
there's still more inside me,
but i guess no one really wants to listen.
so oh well.


42 届, saranghae?
six two, saranghae?
altair, saranghae?

2pm hwaiting!
Ali.